Monster Missions & Extra Chemistry

Dream 1 - Extra Chemistry
I was walking towards the science department and some of the people from my class came the other way, including Beth. She said she'd been told to go to history instead, and JJ also said he'd been told to go to geography. I went to Dr Harrison's chemistry class and asked whether i was supposed to go anywhere instead too, hoping fervently that i could go to art (which is what i'd normally have when Beth is in history), but he said i was to stay in chemistry, because i wasn't so good at it and needed the extra time. I got him to double check, but knew i was in for inevitable extra chemistry lessons.

Dream 2 - Monster Mission
This dream was quite surreal, so a little difficult to explain fully.
I was a princess, but i was in love and involved with a man that i shouldn't have been. The consequences if anyone found out, due to my being a princess and the fact that the man i would be with should be chosen carefully by someone else, would be terrible - perhaps even death - if i didn't stop my involvement with this man. However, because i was in love with him and not willing to desert him i could not carry on being who i was; i was to switch identities with someone who looked identical to me, and no longer carry on being a princess.
After this i was back at home, in the garden. It was pitch black and i was with someone else, carrying out some sort of mission. There was a monster around the corner, which my command he would be set free, and when i did this we hurried inside. However, a black dog had followed us into the kitchen and we were trying to get it back outside quickly so that we could close the door. We were moving quite fast & were panicky, and quite scared. The dog had other ideas - it wasn't going to get left for the monster - and it refused to do what i wanted it to. It was making a lot of noise trying to get out of the kitchen, so eventually i thought i would carry it up into my bedroom if it was quiet.
When i got to the top of the stairs however, the black dog and Fudge both ran barking into my parents bedroom and i knew i'd made a big mistake. I grabbed it and ran downstairs, my mother had angrily gotten out of bed and was also going to come down, and i ran into the kitchen. I noticed that the door was dangerously still open and got angry and shouted at the other person who was there, slammed the door and it broke completely.
At this point i sank to the floor, buried my head in my hands and began to cry for all the terrible things i had done without considering other people.

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Teacher
To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, it may relate to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.

School
If you are still in school and dream about school, then it will naturally serve as a backdrop to your dream world. Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life.

Princess
To dream that you are a princess, indicates that you are recognizing your full potential. You still need to grow more and develop your full character.

Monster
Dream monsters conventionally represent the fear of the unknown, fear of the future.

Dinosaur
To see a dinosaur in your dream, symbolizes an outdated attitude. You may need to discard your old ways of thinking and habits.

Fear
Fear of any kind in a dream is widely understood as a subconscious response to the unknown or unfamiliar in daily life or to your uncertainty about the future. Once the source of the fear is known, the emotion goes away.

Darkness
Dark, gloomy weather in your dreams represents your fears and reservations, and the realm of the unknown. It may mean that you are unable to pinpoint exactly what is disturbing you about a person or situation.

Anger
To dream that you are feeling much anger, forewarns that you will be involved in a terrible and tense situation. Your loved ones will let your down and disappoint you. It also forewarns that once solid ties will be broken. Being angry in your dream may have been carried over from your waking life. In your dream, you may have a safe outlet to express such emotions. You may have some suppressed anger and aggression that you have not consciously acknowledged.

Personal Meaning
The first dream was to do with going in a new direction, learning lessons and being put to the test. In fact, everything from seeking guidance, issues with authority, seeking approval and feeling i'm being put to the test tie in with an issue that has been on my mind very recently. Something that i have been trying to push away and tell myself that i am only imagining it, or that it isn't that important, that i don't have to think about right now. And yet it's something that God seems to be putting symbols everywhere that are to do with it, but i still avoid it. Symbols in my dreams, when i open up books randomly to a page that concerns it, it was mentioned at several seminars i went to at Soul Survivor, and even the very fact that it has been on my mind so much recently. Even Dr Harrison's subject, chemistry, ties in, and Mr Major's subject (who came in very briefly) biology, is perfectly relevant to.
And yet i still try and avoid it in my mind. That's the one thing... seeking guidance? I haven't really been seeking guidance, more trying to pretend that the advice is wrong.
Hang on; i'm just following a train of thought. Guidance. Advice. Not rules. Is it just me, or is it that God is trying to give me advice about something, trying to warn me, not trying to say i'm not allowed or it's against the rules? Maybe i can discern this through looking at the rest of my dream.

If you are a visitor to this site and have read up to here you are probably wondering what this issue i'm trying to deal with is, and why i haven't mentioned it up to now. I'm sorry not to mention it, but firstly it's quite a personal thing, secondly i'm not entirely sure whether i'm right or it's just me reading the wrong signals (but i think that's just what i'm hoping), and finally before i have either resolved or simply made this issue a little more understandable in my mind i'm not sure i want everyone, or certain people, to know. Hmm.

So we come to the second dream. This dream was rich in emotion and detail for me. I think there was more to it, as at some point i faced the monster while i was at the top of my stairs and it was on the stairs, but i can't remember when in the dream this happened or whether i defeated the monster or not (though come to think of it, i think i actually did defeat it). Apparently, stairs signify travel and change, which may be because this 'issue' may cause a couple of changes in the future - not sure whether they are good or if i'll welcome them :S - and defeating the monster means that i will successfully deal with my rivals. Which is one thing that is encouraging because it would be great if i could sort out this thing & have positive outcomes - if i did defeat the monster that is.
There is one part of this dream that is quite clear. Feeling fear in my dream, seeing monsters, and the dark all signify a fear of the future. Perhaps it's not so hard to see where that stems from. But this fear of the future is one of the clearest parts of the dream.
So the final part of the dream - feeling angry. I'm not sure whether i believe in dreams being able to forewarn things, but having just reread what it says about anger above i now feel really worried, because loved ones letting me down and solid ties being broken are exactly my worst-case-scenario fears of this situation. There is however a 50% chance that it was simply anger that i had bottled up in my waking state, as i have a tendancy to suppress things like anger, and may be just venting frustration safely in my sleep. I hope.

It's so unfair. Why do these things have to concern the people you care about most? And how do i know i'm not making a mountain out of a molehill, because i half feel like i am? God... please... help...

*20th August [next day]*
Wow what a dream that was. But don't always take me too seriously, as i wasn't having the best of days yesterday in my head, and sometimes have a tendancy to get carried away.